I am going to rename my blog Delinquent Blogger. What do you think? It fits right?
I have rarely felt as tired as I have these last few weeks. Don't know what's up. I'm just fuckin tired. Feel kinda blah. Like I don't want to go to work in the morning or be there all day. Have other things I'd rather be doing. I just want to be on vacation. I'm taking a week at the end of April and really looking forward to it. I'm not going anywhere. Just staying home. I haven't planned a weeklong vacation to just stay in my house in years. I'm going to study like a madwoman. A week later I will take my SAT. I can't believe how close it's getting! So much still to do. Going to work everyday just feels like an obstacle to doing the things I really need to do. But how can I really accomplish any of those things if I'm not pulling in that paycheck? I can't. And it's not like it's a bad job, it's not. It's a great job, it's just in the way right now. I can't really picture what it will be like to go to school and work at the same time. I hope it doesn't kill me.
I've blogged about some things, but the drafts seem so rough and plaintive that I've decided to refrain from posting them for now. I've become totally irrelevant. Boo hoo. Damn real life.
Posted by Maria at March 31, 2005 11:19 PM | TrackBackDon't you start talkin' like that...what you're doing is very important for YOURSELF. Get this class out of the way because you're just fretting about making that high score..once you start taking classes you can ease up a bit :) You're just nervous about this initial hurdle...
You couldn't be irrelevant if you TRIED honey...but you come first right now...look around we're still snooping around..patiently waiting on ya...that's what friends do :)
Posted by: Sandy at April 1, 2005 12:35 AMI definitely understand the need for breaks from work. luckily I have a fairly decent work schedule. I generally work 8 or 9 days in a row and then get 5 or 6 days off to recover. problem is, I'm always so tired during those days off that I don't want to get out and DO anything! I'm taking a week off in May to go visit my parents in Michigan and I'm really looking forward to that. it'll be nice to really get away for a little while!
as for the SATs, hang in there. you're in the home stretch and I'm sure all the work you've done to prepare yourself will pay off!
Posted by: girl at April 1, 2005 10:06 AMAw shucks Sandy...;o) I'm glad people still snoop around. You're right about this being a big hurtle. It's weird though, because I feel like I need to clear the hurtle to prove to myself that I am worthy and capable of self discipline. (Trying to learn to say the words "self discipline" without cringing! It's never been a strong point.) I'm workin on it. I believe in myself. yes yes yes. Man I am fuckin scared about test day though. Still a month away and my palms are starting to sweat already... thank god for practice tests! Took another one today.
Girl, I like the sound of your schedule. I've never had a schedule like that in my life. I can't imagine...! I'm a 9 to 5, 5/7 day girl. I'm slightly tired of it. I wouldn't mind trading you for a little while. Thanks, as always, for your encouragement on the test. I need as much self confidence as I can get at this point. Mostly that comes from the whole process of learning. I'm thanking my dad for these courses, because without them, there's no way I could pull off this test.
Posted by: Maria at April 2, 2005 03:14 PMI wish my parents had suggested courses like that back when I took them 9 years ago (though I probably would have had to drive at least an hour away b/c I lived in Podunkville at the time). I bought a "SAT for Dummies" book that helped me a bit, but it really came down to the fact that I'm a terrible timed test taker. classes probably would have helped me learn how to focus. ah well.
Posted by: girl at April 2, 2005 06:06 PMYes, the course really helps, though the kids in there suck! The best thing you can do is take the practice tests and study hard at home. Practice tests are key to the time management thing. You have to learn how to move quickly through the test. It's 25 minutes for each section. That's not much time! You gotta haul ass and try not to make mistakes. The shit ain't easy. Especially with the essay because the time runs out in the blink of an eye and you're writing as fast as you can and it's so disappointing when you don't get to finish.
Posted by: Maria at April 2, 2005 06:47 PM