Please Note: This entry makes me sound like a terrible person.
Do you ever have one of those days where everyone seems to get on your nerves, from the oblivious idiot on the train to your very own co-workers to whoever else might have the nerve to be in the same building with you? I guess most people would call it PMS, but today it's just grumpiness. But it's that same feeling (maybe it IS PMS). Extreme irritation. There's nothing worse than some asshole who's trying to be funny or some other asshole who doesn't realize when they are just doing something unbelievably annoying. Nothing worse than an amateur comedian when you are having one of those days or having someone tell you what to do. Or someone asking if you're okay, when you're FINE. Absolutely FINE. Now FUCK OFF!
I don't mean that though. Have to bottle up those thoughts and feelings because they are just a product of anxiety. They have nothing to do with actual individuals. I will not take out my aggression and anxiety on anyone today. I will take a very deep breath and recognize that they are just trying to be nice, go about their business, get through their day, overcome their own challenges and that it's not necessary for me to be a cold, rotten bitch or to feel overcome by the desire to throttle the living daylights out of the next human being who comes near me.
Posted by Maria at February 4, 2004 10:48 AM | TrackBackYou're fine! I had a day like that last week, actually told me husband while I was cooking that I didn't want to look at him or hear his voice for the next hour and to get the fuck out of my kitchen..he took it well but like a child he stomped out and said "you're mean"..and I felt mean and I liked it. It happens.
Posted by: sandy at February 4, 2004 03:01 PMWell you just put a big smile on my face Sandy. Hahaa! "I felt mean and I liked it." Hahahaaaaa.
Posted by: Maria at February 4, 2004 03:07 PMWell...that same day now this makes me sound terrible..I had been to the bank and grocery store. Apparently it was senior citizens social security check cashing day. Normally I love old people, I think they are adorable. I love the little ole ladies w/blue hair..anyway that day I could have strangled every damn one of them. Nasty old people were out. A lady rammed the back of my heels w/her cart than told me to get out of her way..well if she hadn't been in her 70's I would have said something, but my manners told me to ignore her. I saw her 2 aisles over and she was standing on the bottom shelf trying to reach a can of coffee on the top shelf. I went over and got it for the cart crashing crabass. She snatched the can out of my hand and didn't say thank you. Well, this is the commissary on base and not too big so you see the same people throughout a shopping trip...I see her again by the milk section and her book of coupons fell to the floor, I picked them up and fucking kept them. I'm ashamed but that old lady had it coming.
Posted by: sandy at February 4, 2004 05:20 PMShe fully fucking deserved it, that hag. I say good for you. Just because people are seniors does not mean that they have the right to be assholes. If you expect to be treated with respect in your old age you can't just go ramming people with shopping carts.
I was walking out of my building the other day and as I came around one of the large columns out front I nearly bumped into this older lady. I was startled and said "oh excuse me, I'm sorry" and you know what she did!?! She fucking shoved me out of her way and kept going! Now this kind of thing happens in the subway on a daily basis but usually it's a little more subtle. A shove here, a bump there. It irritates me, but I deal with it because I'm the retard that chose to move to NYC. But when someone is right in front of you and just shoves you out of the way after you've already said excuse me! That just takes the cake. I turned around and yelled at her "Don't push me you old bitch!" Of course, she didn't stop, but I felt much better.
Posted by: Maria at February 4, 2004 07:33 PMAll this talk about old folks and it got to me thinking about my granny Frances, now that woman had a mouth on her that wouldn't quit. I was 16 and took her to the curb market in Hawkinsville, to buy a bushel of peas. She found some she liked and told me to bring the truck around and she plopped her purse on top of the bushel and was gonna wait. The man who had the booth came over and granny asked him "who are you people"..he said he was a Grantham. Granny said, "I know some Granthams, they ain't honest people"..than right in front of him she told me she wasn't leaving her peas alone with him that "this man will cheat me"..the man laughed and promised not to cheat her and her peas would be safe untill we brought the truck around. My granny wouldn't even look at him, so I was dying of embarrassment but this guy was grinning from ear to ear, he winked at me and said he'd keep an eye on her & her peas. When I got back my granny was saying horrible things to this guy, he just kept shaking his head and saying "yes ma'am, you right, yes ma'am"..On the ride home I kinda yelled at her and asked just what in the hell was the matter with her. She got all huffy and lit one of her Virginia Slims and btw burnt a hole in my dads seat..but anyway she told me off than. I miss her and that damn mouth :)
Posted by: sandy at February 5, 2004 09:45 AMOh and about your lady in front of your building...you'll have to excuse me I'm wound up tighter than a piano wire today....anyway a while back me * Ailey were shopping and a grown up almost ran her over and didn't say, "excuse me" I always teach Ailey to say that, so right in front of the guy I said very loudly, "Ailey, I guess you don't have to say excuse me anymore, if an adult wont' say it than screw it"..The guy looked at me so hard and this is dumb but I stuck my tongue out at him, I figured if he was gonna act stupid than so would I.
Posted by: sandy at February 5, 2004 09:51 AM