Happy New Year! I know I'm belated. Some blogger I am. I don't even know if I qualify at this point. The concept of a new year is always such a mind trip. Not only do you have to remember to write 04 rather than 03, but you are obligated to wish a happy new year to every last person you encounter and then you also have to resolve to be a better person in the coming year. We all have room for improvement so that whole tradition works out pretty well. Anyone who says "I'm perfectly happy with myself and my life so I don't have any resolutions..." well, they're really full of shit. And anyway, I like turning over new leaves.
I started the year off right. Woke up with a hangover. Me and a lot of other people, I'm sure. So far, I really haven't started doing anything differently. I know I haven't stopped shopping yet. I feel bad almost, for buying sooo much stuff. But I also feel pretty stoked that I'm all set for the new year with shoes and clothing galore. I've been a shopaholic since I started christmas shopping. And I just haven't stopped. We even went to the 99 cent store on New Years Day and I bought a shopping bag full of cheap-o goodies. Little painted vases and picture hooks and nails and plastic beaded bracelets and a camoflauge rain hat. All very necessary objects.
I have a slight tinge of PHAA (post-holiday-alcohol-anxiety). I had stopped drinking completely a couple weeks before Christmas. See, I have always been a drinker. I'm not afraid to admit it. But I want to cut down in a major way. I really want to be healthy, and drinking is not healthy. Neither is smoking or eating one meal a day, but I'm going to work on those things next. First, I really want to push alcohol into the category of less prominent activities in my life. So here I go, into a new year with that resolution.
I also have a couple of others. One is to work on putting together some writing, submitting for publication and to keep working on my art projects and portraits. (I did one of myself for Rob as birthday gift and it turned out kickass.) Another is to focus on taking better care of my mind & body in general. To do more stretching and breathing and meditation to keep my back problems from tormenting me and anxieties from dominating my mind. To accomplish all of these things, I have to dedicate time and energy to each one. So my final resolution would be exactly that. I resolve to find the time & energy in each hectic week to apply to the aforementioned resolutions.
So there you have it. My New Years Resolutions. What are yours?
Posted by Maria at January 3, 2004 02:16 PMLast year I resolved to be a better person. Vague I know but why set yourself up for failure with ridged rules. So again I set out to "be a better person". I know what that means to me and I can't put it into terms that anyone else has the time to listen understand, and as far as the ego is concerned I have a good chance at succeeding. As each year passes we are silly to not evolve and correct most of our loudest mistakes. And boy are they loud! I love you Maria and miss you madly. I hope you are doing well. Love Darcie Khan
Posted by: Darcie at January 6, 2004 03:23 AMSorry I wrote one thing and then went to correct it and forgot to take out the word "listen". haha
Posted by: Darcie at January 6, 2004 03:25 AMHey Darcie,
I completely understand what you mean by the vague philisophical definition of the phrase "being a better person" and also what you mean by wanting to strive for that. I think for me being a better person boils down to being humble and caring about yourself and others. Looking in the mirror and being proud that you're doing the most you can for your own health and well being, and that of others. That you try your best not to harbor malice or deceit for others, even though it's hard sometimes.
I think you are a very good person Darcie and I love you soooooooo much. And we should never stop trying to reach our full potential or working on ourselves & the world. That's the true pursuit of happiness.
Mwah (that's a kiss),
Maria